i hate mondays!!

I absolutely HATE mondays! Just wanted to say that.

The negativity continues...

I hate teaching on mondays! Kids are fucking crazy on mondays!

I hate working out. Why is my left arm so damn weak?? DAMN. lol

I absolutely HATE Flo-rida and anything that sounds remotely close!!!

I hate television.

I hate the fact that I want to go back to school but can't afford it.

I hate that I have to buy a new car in the next two weeks and therefore will be subjected to a monthly car payment.

complicated??

First of all, if you don't have The Evolution of Robin Thicke in your collection, you should really consider hurting yourself!! Seriously. And for those of you with the ability to distinguish good music from the warmed over garbage that is contemporary R&B and already have this masterpiece in your collection, I suggest revisiting it. As noted a few days ago, I'm upset with hip hop right now and I have decided to revisit a few of my favorite "slow jams". Lately, its been Robin Thicke and also an occasional Jodeci track. Now usually, I'm not one to get my "Ne-Yo on" and sulk over love songs, but after listening to "Complicated", I couldn't help but reflect on my past relationship. Granted, our breakup was amicable, but was I too complicated? I've always thought of myself as a pretty good "boyfriend" with minimal complications but I know that we are all naturally complex to a degree. So I started thinking, what are the things that make me complicated??

Tendency to be condescending - Simply put, I always think that I'm smarter than my partner. This flawed way of thinking usually translates into me patronizing the one I am with. Not a good look.

Lazy - All of my relationships have been with extremely organized women. Unfortunately, I am the complete opposite and I think my laziness may have contributed to a few problems.

I'm always right - I get this from my mama and this is tied into my first "complication". I don't argue if I'm wrong. My mom always says, "I'm telling you this because I'm right". And now I do the same thing. I know it sounds arrogant and cocky but when I speak on something, 99.9% of the time I'm right. If I had any doubt in my correctness, I wouldn't have opened my mouth to speak.

Competitive - I'm a competitive person. In my last relationship specifically my competitiveness is a major reason why I am now single. For some odd reason, everything is like a competition for me. I guess you can attribute it to typical male machismo. I just love to compete.

What makes you complicated??

the answers...

"But through all the lessons that you taught me I have learned my experiences enhanced my character" - Musiq Soulchild

why "1980", i mean, i guess ur 27, but what made you choose that name?
A big part of who I am today comes from my childhood during the 80s. So since every is obsessed with being an 80s baby, I figured I would switch it up a lil bit and just represent the year I was born. It was a great year!! Not that I remember it!! lol

1 song u will never get tired of...
There are tons on songs I can never really get tired of but right now two come to mind John Mayer "Come Back To Bed" and Musiq Soulchild "Time". I absolutely LOVE those two songs!

1 celebrity you want to have your children...
This one is too hard to pick just one! Right now there are a few I wouldn't mind impregnating lol. First would have to be Sanaa Lathan ( I fell in love after Brown Sugar), Cassie (yeah I know she's young, but she is legal!! lol) and I'm not sure if the last two can be considered celebrities but they can both still get it...Nikki Jean (most recently seen in Lupe's Hip Hop Saved My Life video) and this chick VASHTIE (she's a budding video director, a former fashion consultant for def jam, and currently a candidate for my baby mama!)

why are u searching for your swag...does that mean you lost it, or you never had it?
Oh trust, I have ALWAYS had swagger!! lol..But I am just searching for a different type of swagger. I'm searching for that confidence to really follow my dreams and accomplish the things that will make me thoroughly enjoy every minute of life. People that have total swagger, aren't afraid to take the risks required to live out your dreams. I'm still searching...

fav color?
Grey. My closet is loaded with grey everything. Shirts, shoes, sweaters, socks lol... I love grey!

pepsi or coke?
neither. I drink water

children?
None. I want a lil boy and I want to name him Maverick, but whenever I tell people they think it's a stupid name. It's different but I like it. You think Sanaa would like that name??

married?
One day

What's up with Duke when it comes to NCAA tourneys?
Idk what the hell is going on with Duke. But I'm pissed! We haven't done shit in the tournament in the last couple of years!

Name one thing someone has ever told you that has made an impact on your life.
Always have a plan!! Fail to plan, plan to fail. It's so true!!

What made you choose the name of your blog?
see answer to the fourth question

one thing in life that you've done that you never thought you would do?
Drop out of college. I dropped out after my first semester. It was definitely a dumb move, but I came back to my senses and finished up school.

What is your dream career?
My dream career is to be a writer. I love writing and one day I'm gonna find a way to make a living by doing what I love.

Five things you want to do in your lifetime.

• Go to a Duke Basketball game at Cameron Indoor Stadium.
• Travel to Africa and Japan
  
• See The Roots in concert
• Help my mother retire
• Have a child
  

How did you get into blogging?
I just decided to start blogging as a way to make myself write on a consistent basis. When I first started this blog it was about hip hop and fashion, then eventually I started getting bored with hip hop so I just started doing random posts about life, music, politics and whatever else came to mind. I didnt really care if anyone was reading I just wanted to make it a habit to write everyday.

favorite song of all time?
That's too hard. I don't have just one but I can tell you that Mary J. Blige "My Life" is my favorite album of all time.

how tall are you?
Let's ask the question you really wanted to ask. Am I 6'0" or higher?? No. I feel like women only really care about you if you are tall. I don't understand it. Sorry Eb I don't fit into your perfect man box! lol

have you ever gone streaking? if not, how much money would it take for you to do it? streaking??
Hell no! but if you pay off my student loans right now, i'll run across america butt ass naked!!

if you were a superhero, what would be your name and special ability?
I really wish I could read people's mind. That would definitely be my special ability. My name?? "Cravin Morehead" lol...That has absolutely nothing to do with my ability, just an excuse to use that name because I think its funny. lol

most influential person in your life?
My mother, hands down. She has been such a force in my life. I have a VERY tight bond with my mother. She is a single parent and I am her only child so we have been through alot together. I'm proud to admit to being a Mama's boy. I LOVE MY MAMA!!! lol

What were childhood dreams and how did you fulfill them??
I wanted to be like mike!! Clearly that dream was not fulfilled.

is there one artistic thing that you are horrible at that you would like to master? (e.g. dancing, singing, painting, etc)
I dont have one artistic bone in my body, but I really wished I could draw because I have some good ideas that I want to get out. I completely suck at drawing!

What made you want to become a teacher?
It was kind of the spur of the moment decision. I finished my bachelor's in Political Science and the job opportunities just werent available. Soooo, I went back to school and got my Masters in Education and got a job teaching. Teaching had always been in the back of my mind so I figured I would give it a try.

What's your favorite movie of all time?
Four way tie between ET, Carlito's Way, Friday and Coming To America.

What's your favorite food?
Stereotypical black man....I love ribs!

you've got mail...

I have a few drafts that I'm working on, so until I finish them I guess I will do like everyone else and open up for some questions. Anything you want to know about me, just ask...I'll try my best to answer all questions.

do you??

happy easter!

fiend.

UPDATE: THIS IS COMPLETELY FICTIONAL...JUST THOUGHT I SHOULD CLEAR THAT UP.

UPDATE TWO: THIS IS PART ONE OF A COLLAB BETWEEN DESY AND I. READ PART TWO HERE

The mere scent of a woman nearly drives me to the point of climax. I am addict; a relentless one at that, enthralled by the motion of a woman’s hips as she walks. Salivating as her strut invites me into the most intimate crevices of her body with little effort. My eyes immediately gravitate to the small of the back as I envision caressing that very spot with the tips of my thumb as I gently tame her kitten from behind. I love to imagine the details of our escapade from the point where I lure her into my web to the exact moment I’m injecting my sweet venom into her, satisfying that craving that fuels me. Sex is a pleasing experience for most, but a vice for me; a habit that has crippled my ambition and made nature’s pleasurable facilitator of life a woeful burden. The seconds that pass by are spent thinking about the delectable taste of a woman’s nectar and the calculated cadence of my manhood that follows. The sound a woman emits after I have driven her to her pinnacle and the comforting feeling of her body trembling as we both share a brief moment of vulnerability. It’s my weakness and against my mightiest will I have began to dwell in those moments of defenselessness. For me sex is the taste of nicotine and tobacco thwarting the resistance of a pesky patch. But I have succumbed to the beckoning of this vice for the final time.

All things must come to an end. This obsession will no longer inhibit me. I quit. I’m tired of this yearning occupying my waking moments and invading the innocence of my dreams. I’m tired of the lingering feeling of guilt that follows those quiet mutual moments of vulnerability. No longer will I be motivated by the smooth friction of two sweaty bodies working tirelessly in the name of love. For it is not love that motivates me, it is an intense urge rooted in greed and selfishness. I’ll fight that urge with the ferocity of a follower of the Lord’s word and contain my addiction to the point of celibacy. I quit.

hip hop is boring...

Hip hop is super boring right now. Seriously. I can't even think of five hip hop songs that I like right now. What makes it worst is the fact that I'm only looking forward to a couple of records to drop; The Roots in April and Nas' Nigger, if that ever sees the light of day. In the absence of hip hop, J*Davey has been getting alot of burn in the iPod lately. So what do I do when there is no quality hip hop to listen to?? Well I scour myspace for anything that sounds remotely interesting. What I found was a young lady by the name of Sy Smith. Though her sound resembles that of J*Davey, Sy stands alone as her own artist. Apparently, Sy has been around for some time, appearing in GAP commercials and even in a small role on that Ally McBeal show. How come I have never heard of this chick until today?? She's the former lead singer of the Brand New Heavies, has sang background on American Idol and even has a duet with Al Green for that old Soul Food show that came on Showtime. I guess today was a good day for me to discover her because she's hosting her album release party on Mar. 26th here in DC. The songs on her myspace page are cool but nothing beats live music. If your in the area, go check her out at Bohemian Caverns on U Street, I'll probably be in the building.


SY SMITH @ Myspace